Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Check out time

The goal of many a street level drug addict is to find some place inside to live. This may involve a few key steps: finding a rich partner, finding a sugar daddy ie a John to pay all bills, finding an abandoned building, finding a shooting gallery that has room for you. A shooting gallery or crack den is a place where addicts congregate to use drugs. I have seen beautiful houses turn to rot and grandmothers turn a blind eye for a small fee.

I was the type of addict people did not want to share space with. I was not a thief nor a liar. I could never find a vein so I would spend up to two hours with a ten pack of needles poking at myself. Today I know I am blessed with extremely low blood pressure but then I was cursed. I would scream and cry. Residents would be in their delicate nods while I roused them with my frustration.

I "own" a home today. Really, the bank owns it but someday it may be all our. It is nice to have a stable place to call my own. The walls are pretty bare in my house. I actually have pretty few in the way of possessions. My children have filled the space. They make our house a home. I share my life with them and they keep me present.

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  1. Hi, Ive just watched the documentry as i sure thousancs of people who have spoken to you have. The documentary really invites you into the lives of all the addicts within it, and you sortve begin to care what happens to them and where they are now. I know your asked all the time about where the rest of the characters are, and you say there is a lot of misinformation about you and the others in the movie. Would you please consider writing an article on your blog regarding where y'all are now? It would be nice to have the information concentrated in one area rather than picking it up from lots of scattered comments. What happened to Oreo? He was so soft-spoken and gentle and had the loveliest colour of skin.
    xx

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    1. thanks for reading. Check out this entry
      http://traceyh415.blogspot.com/2013/02/black-tar-heroin-10-questions-answered.html

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  2. This entry made me think of BTH and the section about Jake living with James, and James kicking him out. It seemed so brutal and abusive, and also calculated. Did you ever meet him or know what that relationship was about?

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    1. They had a relationship but mainly because James was a co dependant. Jake really liked women but needed some one to take care of him. Jake and I were friends but I lost touch with him during the James period. I think that was also when he started methadone. I don't mind people asking about BTH but I never know what people want to know

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