I have not used drug in fifteen years. That is a fact. Yet I can easily recall the feeling of being strung out and desperate to have hope. The feeling readers describe of questioning "will I ever stop using?!" Strangely, it is so easy for me to remember that place where only the pain remains and desperation was my only friend.
I answer all my emails. I text and email people in acute detox. I have sent words of encouragement to anyone and everyone. The reality is that it will never be enough. That makes me sad. There are so many still suffering addicts. Big Pharma is creating new ones every day.
Someone asked me recently if I am a narcissist and I use this blog to get attention. If that was true, I certainly would tell more flattering stories about myself. I was an addict that would do almost anything for drugs. Now, I'm clean. The blog is about the transformation. I am living proof that ANYONE can stop using substances. I wish I could tell you HOW to stop dear readers. I do not have those answers. I can only give you my experiences.
I am happy to have helped you. I am happy to provide you with a brief reprieve from your daily insanity. I think of you and wish you all the best.