Another chapter in dopesick love
"Hand me the alcohol wipes" I reach over the bed " this is finally starting to drain"
He hand me two packets of alcohol pads.
"Damn Tracey. How many fucking times are you going to do this to yourself?"
That question rang in my mind for a month to come. I had been performing surgery on myself. I was laying on the bed of our hotel room. We had hustled all day to get the $35 we needed to stay here tonight plus money for dope. Soon, we will have to do the whole thing all over again. For now, I needed a place where I could take off my pants. I needed to lance this abscess to get the pressure off. It wasn't getting all that red or hard but it hurt to walk. I knew the signs. I knew when to go to the doctor. I had been there many times before. The clinic would slice me open and send me on my way with some sterile water and gauze to pack my wounds.
I was quite the amateur doctor, at least in my mind. I had taken a new syringe and stuck in the middle of the in…
He hand me two packets of alcohol pads.
"Damn Tracey. How many fucking times are you going to do this to yourself?"
That question rang in my mind for a month to come. I had been performing surgery on myself. I was laying on the bed of our hotel room. We had hustled all day to get the $35 we needed to stay here tonight plus money for dope. Soon, we will have to do the whole thing all over again. For now, I needed a place where I could take off my pants. I needed to lance this abscess to get the pressure off. It wasn't getting all that red or hard but it hurt to walk. I knew the signs. I knew when to go to the doctor. I had been there many times before. The clinic would slice me open and send me on my way with some sterile water and gauze to pack my wounds.
I was quite the amateur doctor, at least in my mind. I had taken a new syringe and stuck in the middle of the in…
Hi Tracey. I can't wait to read your book but I'm wondering if it will be available for kindle any time soon? You are an inspiration. Keep fighting the fight.
ReplyDeleteIt's on kindle nook and iTunes in e format
DeleteHi Tracey,
DeleteI got my local library (Des Plaines, IL) to get the book. I read it and it is amazing what you have done, and are doing, with your life! Every day you are inspiring someone, somewhere. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself.
I've read it. It was very inspiring.
ReplyDeletethank you
DeleteI got the book on Sunday and I'm half way done..I took a break today to watch the Documentary, updates and read your blog. I am an Admin for TAM (the addicts mom) Maryland state Chapter. Big question for you......September is National Recovery Month and we are holding a Lights of Hope on September 10th any chance you travel to the East Coast for Book promotions and Book signings or to speak? Would love to have you as a guest speaker at our event.
ReplyDeleteEmail me traceyh415@gmail.com. It's possible
DeleteI just finished it. It made me cry a couple of times because I see my sister do the same things.
ReplyDeletei hope that she is okay
DeleteNot yet....but I certainly will.
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DeleteI stopped reading books in the early 90s Tracey, but i want to read this one. I'm using, but holding a job & apt still (which is a miracle). I'm just tired of doing this, and you might inspire me. Glad you pulled yourself out.
ReplyDeleteSincerely ,Noblepuker from utube
I am too my friend
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