tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post1929562628546506090..comments2024-03-09T00:59:50.084-08:00Comments on traceyh415: Taking the Leaptraceyh415http://www.blogger.com/profile/16828593445682777623noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-88987209746049302902016-04-23T13:42:22.668-07:002016-04-23T13:42:22.668-07:00I think having cravings in the first year is prett...I think having cravings in the first year is pretty normal. You forget how miserable it could be so you remember the good parts more than the bad. traceyh415https://www.blogger.com/profile/16828593445682777623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-73268183070691273342016-04-23T13:10:43.564-07:002016-04-23T13:10:43.564-07:00I'm coming up on 4 months clean and like many ...I'm coming up on 4 months clean and like many this is not my first attempt. After struggling and losing my mothers trust she sent me to Europe to live with my dad. Where there is no "hood" where you can drive to and pick up dope nor do I know any connects. The beginning was hard of course but I got over it. But now for some reason these past couple of weeks have been dreadful. I yearn for a fix. For anything opiate related. I'm on suboxone but people who claim they get high on it are def imagining it. And like this article you say it's hard but you resist anyways, if I had the access idk what I would do. I'm having an existential crisis and I just don't see the point anymore. Don't see the point in anything. Like you said, it's nice to have someone to talk to even if it is one ended. Anyways thanks for hearing me out if you read this. Truly thank you Anita Mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14483888633292374513noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-25128867817507877802016-03-10T08:56:53.753-08:002016-03-10T08:56:53.753-08:00This comment has been removed by the author.Lizhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05054447225124628565noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-69178564650564655592016-03-05T20:25:26.058-08:002016-03-05T20:25:26.058-08:00Exactly. The post isn't really about my feelin...Exactly. The post isn't really about my feelings but sharing the common experience that recovery isn't a magical solution for everything traceyh415https://www.blogger.com/profile/16828593445682777623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-59023961355887696262016-03-05T20:22:24.445-08:002016-03-05T20:22:24.445-08:00I love how honest you are about the reality of you...I love how honest you are about the reality of your life after addiction. It seems that too often, recovery is packaged as this magical cure where you live happily ever after.<br /><br />Sometimes my reasons not to commit suicide were similar to part of that- the consequences if it does not work but end up with permanent negative effects. Other than that, just my cat(s), or just because of feelings dissipating eventually on their own.Marie Rhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18257935369059733199noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-75699425653743075452016-03-05T19:44:09.315-08:002016-03-05T19:44:09.315-08:00I am happy but you know how it is- those passing t...I am happy but you know how it is- those passing thoughts traceyh415https://www.blogger.com/profile/16828593445682777623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-57355511966681336282016-03-05T19:12:01.423-08:002016-03-05T19:12:01.423-08:00Thank u for the validation. I mostly share these t...Thank u for the validation. I mostly share these type of thoughts with FB "FRIENDS" I tell them things I'd never say to people on my "REAL" world as they've been there they understand. My vanilla friends would say I was a drama queen or have me thrown in the bin.<br />So thank u Tracey for writing this and NOT jumping in front of that train.nequeenb90https://www.blogger.com/profile/04440252487504091159noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-44981882642905553922016-03-05T17:50:43.391-08:002016-03-05T17:50:43.391-08:00congrats to you, turning your life aroundcongrats to you, turning your life aroundtraceyh415https://www.blogger.com/profile/16828593445682777623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6971965211310107060.post-18459059224446221062016-03-05T16:17:53.250-08:002016-03-05T16:17:53.250-08:00Thank you Tracey for being brave enough to admit y...Thank you Tracey for being brave enough to admit you think of suicide. I understand. I've been depressed since I was 11 years old. When I was using opiates there was a still small voice saying: "You could overdose." And then I would do it anyway. Last year I ended up in the hospital after an intentional drug overdose. It was the best thing that happened to me because I was faced with the reality of my addiction. I found things in my life that made me want to live. I'm so glad you did as well. Love Lara.Raingirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07303888410067321946noreply@blogger.com